Book

I've decided to write a book. Yeah, I know. Wow. Whether or not it gets picked up and tossed around the summer selection of next years reading list.... yeah, we shall see. I'm clearly looking forward to sharing my insight and information about going deaf and deaf culture. I have editors galore that are looking forward to my success.
I can only promise you that I will write the book, whether or not I will make it fiction, non fiction or something else in between is a whole other story..
More later and ....
thanks for listening.

Lunacy

I think yesterdays little episode correlates directly with the full moon over head. It went way past a silly little sadness, and quite frankly scared the hell out of me. I'm still slightly melancholy today but, workable. The big boys are home today and are a great distraction to emotion outside of the frustration, of course... lol
I guess the anger that stems from being hearing impaired got to me more than I had previously believed. I have scheduled my evaluation for cochlear implants at the end of the month. Magic pill, miracle or vampire venom apart I think this is the only option for me in reality.
On a positive note, the bunnies are out and I caught a great pic, enjoy....

Feeling pathetic

It's amazing how much a movie can affect you. I just watched Twilight again. Now, I feel like a pathetic little girl still searching for the night in shinning armor Or, vampire in glistening skin. I know, I subjected myself to yet another fantasy. A life outside my own. Different - Ethereal, majestic.

Unlike my own which I find rather hum drum.
OK back to reality - that painting is not going to finish itself!

Back with a Vengeance

WTF? Where have I been? OH, my god. (mine not yours). I have been thoroughly inundated with school work, homework, sick kids, sick spouse, car accidents, sick self, and a general malaise that carries over from exhaustion! This school semester I have been completely bogged down with CRUD. Most similar to pond scum, crud is the everyday yuck that can get in the way of a good education or even life. I miss having 2 minutes to think to myself! Alrighty, enough complaining.
Making things better~ reading a lot of books to help me in my career choice of the future and learning as much as possible about deaf culture. I really have learned quite a bit of sign language and wish that I could practice more but way too many people in my life do not know even basic signs. I've instructed my spouse that it's time to learn so I will be practicing in front of him and the children. Like it or not, I'm going deaf. Even if the approval for Cochlear Implants makes it's way over to me, I will still be deaf.
There is no going back (unless of course miracles in science happen).
OK, so I'm off to the Dr. With what I think is Bronchitis.
Vacation week next week so, I expect to get a good bit of reading in and handing in my paper on Deaf Culture to my Anthropology Professor.

Addendum to Rosie

I write this in the wake of Rosie's passing. I write "you" to signify her.

The last time I saw you was at Maddy's 2nd birthday party.
Vivacious as ever and so full of Joy. No thoughts to the battle with Cancer that you fought and won. That's just another piece of you, who you are. Your passing raises a well of tears that cannot be quelled. Taken from earth in a swift slap of fate. I remember you at 18, when we challenged our hair to mysterious heights. Of course, you won every time. You were always a stunning girl. Envied by many~ including me. Not just for your external beauty but the beauty in your heart. The kind of beauty that cannot be conveyed with words. There will never be another human being like you. Unique. Beautiful. Vivacious. Charming. Elegant. Rosie.

Rosie

Rosie,

I will never get to say "Good Bye" to you.

I will not be able to tell you how thoroughly beautiful you are.

I will not be able to tell you how much joy you have brought to others.

I will however, remember you with love in my heart.

Rosie,

Rest now, peacefully.

Still

I have no idea as of yet why those fireworks were set off. That aside, school is great!
I love my classes, especially American Sign Language. I get to use what I know. In addition, I can learn more about it and be able to apply it with friends who are hearing impaired and deaf. It's amazing how life twists and turns, where you end up, what you end up doing with your life.
I'm really glad I'm here. In this place. Now.
I've been informed by my English teacher that I along with the rest of the class, will be starting a new blog on our English readings. I will probably cut and paste some of it for you to read as well.
Really looking forward to an awesome semester.